From Light to Darkness
Thursday, August 25, 2011 at 10:01AM Yesterday our neighbors commented on how dark our house has been saying, "Usually it is all lit up!" They were not commenting on our Christmas decorations, but on the fact that our children are now both in college. The upstairs is dark, the front porch lights are not left on for their late arrival home, and the parking lot that is our driveway is not filled with their cars or the cars of their friends.
Yes, the house is quiet and much darker without them. This is our new reality, and I hope and trust, that the darkness is not a permanent metaphor, only that MLG&W will not benefit so much from their presence. Truth be told, this new reality is not comfortable yet. We miss our children and the light and chaos their presence brings. At the same time however, they are experiencing the life we hoped for them. They are having fun, not too much fun I pray, while pursuing their dreams, honing their God-given gifts, stretching their minds and their perspectives, finding new friends and discovering new truths. This is what we said we wanted and this is what we have.
For our children, they are walking in a new light, armed with whatever precepts and understandings we were able to successfully impart. And we are left with a darker house and not worrying about what time they get home. Such is the process of letting go.
Transitions in life can always feel gloomy and dark in the beginning, but that darkness always gives way to light. It may take time to see and to accept new realities, but that is what faith proclaims. Change opens up chances to discover and do new things. Like our children, we will live into our new reality and we will find that comfortable place, even knowing that it too is only temporary. And the bonus for this new reality - I will smile each month when I open the utility bill!
Peace,
John+
Reader Comments (2)
Thank you for sharing. I'm sure there are many who are feeling the same way.
Thank you, John! Beautifully written. We're at a different place, but Noah started 3rd grade today, and reported when I picked him up that it was "awesome." It seems like only months since I was stuck sitting on the couch doing nothing but feeding him 24/7... I hope you all are well, and enjoying some time alone again! -Love, Juliana